Wednesday, July 1, 2009

For real?!!!

I am engaged!!!

Monday, June 8, 2009

I just want to know!

I'm so exhausted and so ready for something to fall from the sky that says Shelly here you go this is what your supposed to do for the next 364 days of my life... I'm so ready to hear from God some specifics. I really want to live were He wants me to but I also know He's teaching me how to trust Him because that is a much bigger lesion that I need. I know what I have heard but I don't know all I want to know and that just happens to be some pretty important dissensions that I wish were already made.

What do I want to do with my life? Well you can read my "Dreaming" Blog a couple blogs down and it tells to the tee what my desires are. Those desires were put there in my heart by God and became my ambition as I watched my family and my mommy raise me and help other people know Jesus better. That is what I want to do now.

I'll be twenty years old in eleven weeks and in eleven weeks I will know a lot more about life than I do right now. But what I do know is that I want to be preparing for my future. As I wrote in my last blog God has blessed me abundantly. I want to use all that God has given me for His purpose that He has for my life. I know that there is not a one sized fits all plan for my life and sometimes I kinda wish it was closer to that. Because the truth is that the things God has made me for are not the same as every body else. And for some reason God has not only given me different dreams but also given them to me a little earlier than every one else too. So what do I do when I want to start life but all my friends are still talking about "cooties and cute clothes"? It's so much easier to be the person people expect you to be and to blend in with the crowd around m. I just know that I need GODs plan to be fulfilled and I don't want to jump in any of the wrong places.

I feel like the door is opening really slow like when your claustrophobic in a slow elevator and you feel like you might never get to the right floor just so the doors will open. That's how I feel and I'm ready to get off. I know what's at the top but I'm not just sure yet what's going to happen on the way up.

Monday, May 18, 2009

Blessed to Bless Others

I have nothing to be un happy about... that is what I discovered or more fully realized when I woke up today at 11:30 almost pm in my comfie bed and green bedroom. The lies that somehow I tell myself are that I would be happier if or life would be better if.... I had my own place, I was married, I had more money, my family lived closer, i was done with college, I was prettier and many many more lies... I figured out today, just out of the blue that I have it better off right now... I have a gorgeous big beautiful house that's in a super location and close to friends. I have an amazing dad who works really hard to provide for me so that I can live here and eat here and wash my hair here... My dad is a super provider for our family. My mother is always here to talk and lesion and help me in troubles as she has my whole life. I have an amazing boyfriend who loves me and watches out for me and also provides for me let alone spends way way to much time by my side. (which is a good thing) I'm happy that I was blessed with him early in my life although I think things are a little harder this way it's been so great to have a best friend like Him by my side. I'm also glad that we have this time to just be friends and get the excitement of seeing eachother before we are married. It's fun to dream about. The whole money thing is so crazy I fall into it over and over... it's so great to know that things of any kind just won't satisfy. No dress is cute enough no car is worth anything next to people and God and that indeed is what I want to spend my life earning the respect friendship and love of People and God... not money or what money could by me. I miss my sister a lot she lives 4 hours away and is pretty much having an exciting part of her life right now that I don't get to be a part of. Her little baby boy is kicking around in her tummy while my brother in law that I haven't seen or talked to in ages is fixing up there very first house for there new family. I wish I could go have hot chocolate with my big sis any night I wanted to. Yet she is a great example to me of how she lives her life. You can go many places and do many great things but if it's not where God wants you to be it's worthless. I know without a doubt that Lori is where God wants her and silly me to be jealous of that. This whole college thing... I really know that I don't want to give my life to school and work yet im such a perfecter in things like that. I can't do anything but my best even if it kills me- I have know clue why! But I see so many different opportunities all around me and I just want God to be like "SHELLY DO THIS!" Right now I have know clue what I am going to do... I have my ideas but i hope God makes them really really clear. I do struggle a lot with self esteem what girl doesn't? To think I'm going to go to kamp for 36 days and not wear a touch of makeup makes me want to freek out! I've been wearing makeup since I was like 13! and even if I don't look good in a two peice or with my hair straightened, I still have a boyfriend who tells me i'm beautiful when I have been crying for hours and in my flash clothes. Hear I sit complaning about life everyday and wishing it away... that is not the Shelly I used to know! Where did that come from? Well, I got sick of it today and for real I like how everything is right now.

I AM BLESSED beyond measure!

Tuesday, April 7, 2009


My Dream...

To live in a cute little house that I can Garden out front and have a big deck that wraps around three sides of the house with white posts and a pouch swing. Beautiful decorated rooms in a wide range of colors and fun personalized things all around... our bedroom would be in the attic with a window seat and we would have a sitting area and then you walk down to the bedroom part...

More of my Dream...
To be married to the man beyond my dreams who works for our family and goes on adventures with me all the time... We would never get sick of picnics and taking walks at night and just curling up and watching movies together doing things going places we have never been just being together. Being best friends. I want to be His helper as the Bible describes me to be. I want to be his Biggest fan, encourager, lover and best friend.

Dreaming more... I would love to have a small business where I could take pictures such as, senior, wedding, couples, engagement, family, sports, babies, and kids...Have a little office with amazing framed pictures. I would love to specialize in making personalized books.

Having a couple cuties that run around the house watching them grow and being able to teach them about God early so that they are ecstatic about how real He is. I want to finger paint and build tree houses, have tea parties and make music videos... I want to be the best mommy ever!

I dream more...
I would love to have a small group in our home when couples come over and we can learn about Gods greatness together... I also want to have an outreach to teenage girls were they can come over learn how to sew and cook and then get really deep in the word and in theology knowing that we can start young making a difference for Christ.

I would love to travel go places that are different than the great Ozarks, definitely: Paris, Israel, Arizona, Main, California, Colorado, Hawaii, Australia... I would love to take photos there but also just experience the different cultures and beautiful creation.

I want my day to day life to not be about me but I want to help others by encouraging them and doing things for them that will help them be who God can make them... I want to be one of those women that you can't get out of The Word... I want to think in such a way that is always in context of eterenity.

I have many dreams and many more will come i'm sure yet I know that God has my life all planned out and I am part of his Body so beyond any of my dreams I want to give them all up in order for God to fill me up with His spirit so I can be a vessel for His Glory...

That's my DREAMS

Saturday, December 20, 2008

This is Truth! Really!

The only thing that really transforms us is seeing God face to face. Gazing at the face of God exposes who we really are, exposes our culter, but it also turns us into a world changer. If we gaze at Him and see his holy nature we will desire to change the culture around us. There is no place that we run see imagine or exist that God is not in. There is no area in life that God has not given us the fundamental answers to life. God is beautiful beyond description and comprehension. We can not gaze upon the face of God and not be deeply effected. I’m not worried about completion but in transformation.

Why did Jesus come into the world? Why did the impotent God of the universe come into the sinful world to save us? “For this reason I was born and this I came into the world….” John 18:33-38 Jesus tells Pilote that He came into the world to “ testify to the truth.” Jesus says I tell you the truth 75 times in the scriptures. Truth is on trial and Jesus is the defending the truth.

What does it mean that Jesus is the truth? God’s word is truth. The truth will set us free. Lies take us captive and truth sets us free. God gives us the spirit of truth and will guide us into all truth.

How do we respond to the truth? 2 timothy 4:3-4 “For the time will come when men will not put up with sound doctrine. Instead, to suit their own desires, they will gather around them a great number of teachers to say what their itching ears want to hear. They will turn their ears away from the truth and turn aside to myths.” Romans 1:18…” suppress the truth” Acts 20:30…” distort the truth” Romans 2:8…” reject the truth and follow evil” Romans 1:25…“They exchanged the truth of God for a lie, and worshiped and served created things rather than the Creator—who is forever praised. Amen.”

“Everyone on the side of truth lesions to me” So there are sides to truth… (1 John 4:6) Satan wants to be the one that people choose. 2 Thessalonians 2:9-13 “The coming of the lawless one will be in accordance with the work of Satan displayed in all kinds of counterfeit miracles, signs and wonders, and in every sort of evil that deceives those who are perishing. They perish because they refused to love the truth and so be saved…because from the beginning God chose you to be saved through the sanctifying work of the Spirit and through belief in the truth.” John 8:44-46 “He was a murderer from the beginning, not holding to the truth, for there is no truth in him. When he lies, he speaks his native language, for he is a liar and the father of lies. Yet because I tell the truth, you do not believe me! Can any of you prove me guilty of sin? If I am telling the truth, why don't you believe me?” The lies aren’t that clever… how often do you do something and then say that was stupid… when we look at unbelievers we should not view them with an arrogant attitude we should view them as captives.

The biggest lie is this…. It’s all about us.

Unity - division
Diversity - unification
What God wants to bring together man wants to pull apart. What God commands do not let these two come together man wants to brake apart. This is a Battle of worldviews. Everything that God says the world the flesh and the devil goes exact opposite of it. Who is man? Man is made in the image of God. What is the opposite of that? Random, not created, stuff. God is sinful the opposite of that is basically good… the opposite of what Christ says is usually or always what the world is telling us. A worldview of our world is the exact opposite of Gods view.

What is truth? Truth is reality. Isaiah 44… "Is not this thing in my right hand a lie?" We exchange the truth of God for a lie… we worship creation rather than the Creator. Lies are powerful enough to make us insane… (loss of a grip of reality) Believing a lie is real we act upon that reality. Our actions are made by what we believe is really real. The ultimate source of truth is God himself. Colossians 2:2-3… “Christ, in whom are hidden all the treasures of wisdom and knowledge.” Truth is God’s perception of reality.

Do you believe that Christ is really really real?

What is faith? Our faith is the truth claims of God. We don’t have faith in faith… we have faith in the truth of Christ. Faith like a child? Although everything within us might say “don’t jump” the faith that little children have in there mom and dad overcomes there feelings. Those times when you don’t feel like it we can reach and take hold of Him.

Our emotions and actions are tied into what we believe is really real. Do you REALLY believe that what you believe is REALLY REAL? If we really believed that it was real we would turn the world upside down. If we really believed that when we talked to God in prayer that we were really talking to God who is above all we would not have a problem praying but would rather have a problem being quite.

I want to see the reality how God really sees it. Send me use your truth in me. This is a life long project. I want to live ceaselessly for His purpose.

Thursday, December 18, 2008

One down Seven to go...

Well today today was a day I didn't really ever think I would get through. Today I finished my first semester of college. It has been such a long day! I got up this morning and just studied studied studied until 1:30 for our OT Final. It was really hard and I know I got a lot wrong but I do think I did better on it than any other Exam in that class all year. So it's over... I went to see my Wellness professor this afternoon and talked to him a lil and also found out I got an A- : ) That is a Happy day for you!!! It's crazy I wish I knew the rest of my grades right now. I know I know there is absolutely nothing I can do about it but oh I don't think I'm going to be able to breath out until I know what they are and it's all set in done.... So now what do I do? I have a whole month off. I'm sure I'll find something... ya know like celebrating Christmas and going to the Chick-fil-a game hanging out with my family and sleeping in a lil.... somethen like that : ) Right now though the dorm is really quit and all my friends are off on there way to crazy different places. Our room is soooo clean! I've just been chilling.... watching LOST and I am now going to do a bible study. It's been a long day but I'm so glad that Finals are all over! GOD is soooo good!

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

My 2nd to Last Day of my 1st Semester in College

Today, Today was a good day. I woke up easily and ready to take some Finals. Garrett met me in the chapel about ten min before our first Tests this morning we prayed together it was wonderful! I went and took my first final which I think I did ok at it was a lot harder than I expected but my professor gave us popcorn during the exam. (Gateway, pro Balzer he's my favorite!) I'm going to miss that class, those were some of my favorite parts of the week! I got out early and came back to organize and study for my Wellness Exam which I went to right after lunch I was almost late to it but thanks to Ben and Garrett I noticed what time it was. I seriously studied for that test more than I have ever studied for anything! But I know it was worth it, that thing was long and hard. So I got that over with PRAISE JESUS!!! So I checked my mail and got a Christmas card from the Amazing Amber Lacy it made me smile soooo much as I was walking out of Walker Amber and Morgan were in the gift shop that's when I found out in fact that the place would not take back even one of my books! FOR REAL that's a sad day! However I still had about 40 min before my next final so Morgan Kristy and I all watched the next LOST episode. I didn't want to leave but had to so I headed to my last Final for the day Computer graphics were I made this : ) Garrett and I are in that class together and it is always refreshing to be able to see him at the end of the day. Our professor is really great too. (Bobby Martin) His wife made us theese little sugar cookies for class. After that Garrett and I went to the admissions office for Pizza lots of good food! After that Garrett walked me back to Mayfield and we sat in the loby for about 20 min lestioning to Pastor Paul on Garretts super amazing phone. I am now back in my room with Amber Lacy study/writing on my blog for Old Testement Exam tomorrow. Amber is memorizing something about a mouse.... I don't remember that being on the study guide but if that helps her out then cool thing! It's been a great day! Praise Jesus we only have one more day of school left tell Christmas brake! I can't wait to spend the day with G-rate all Friday too!!!! God is sooo good!